Sometime, I feel like I live in my past. I allowed my past to invade and ruin my today by been a victim of my past. I was a victim when I felt powerless about my own experience. Then, I was a survivor when I lived through it, turnout right, and still alive. But, neither of these words felt right with me. I felt that my core self was ignored and neglected. I am more than a victim or a survivor. When I view myself from a happening, yes, I may be but there are more than one happenings in my life. In many occasions, I didn’t know I was a victim until later in my life.
My take on this is I become a victim when I allow it to affect me, takes over my life. I allowed something to takes over the control over my life. I was passive about my life. It felt like that my life is not determined without such experience. Well, there’s no doubt that my life would be different without that experience. There are things that I have learnt from each happenings. There’s no doubt these learning had become part of my life journey.
Write it on your hear that every day is the best day in the year.
He is rich who owns the day, and no one owns the day who allows it to be invaded with fret and anxiety.
Finish everyday and be done with it.
You have done what you could.
Some blunders and absurdities, no doubt crept in.
Forget them as soon as you can, tomorrow is a new day;
Begin it well and serenely, with too high a spirit to be cumbered with your old nonsense.
This new day is too dear, with its hopes and invitations, to waste a moment on the yesterdays.Ralph Waldo Emerson
How did I get back the responsibility of my life? rather than allowing my life to impact and determine my life?
When I learnt how to stand true to myself, I felt I had my life control back. I slowly learnt how to take responsibilities of my life. Part of me needed to be courageous and brave. I learnt how to accept those happenings as facts of life, part of everyday living, and keep moving on. I would like to enjoy every encounter in life. All are part of everyday life. I now know that I have a choice on how it can interfere with me and to what extent it can influence my life.
I had a chat with a friend the other day. She said that “When you wake up in the morning, it is a new day, you are already different person to yesterday.” My new day is too precious to be wasted in my past which is not serving me anymore.
How would you like to live today?
Are you allowing your past to interfere with you?
How are you progressing towards tomorrow?