I had a chance to sit with research degree supervisors. It was fascinating to sit with them. Lucky thing for me is that even though I am affiliated to my School for my study, I am not caught up in politics and tension in the School. I have heard there are multiple incidences of horizontal... Continue Reading →
How I want to be remembered?
I was reading a novel which illustrated about a love story of a partner with a deadly illness. Of numerous novels I had read so far, I remembered this particular story because after reading it, I had to think about what I would do in such situation. I imagined myself on both side: watching loved... Continue Reading →
What is my purpose in life?
One morning, I was chatting to a friend about what drive my life, in particular when I make decisions. Two words that emerged was 'Safety' and 'Existence'. No doubt that philosophy textbook, I have recently finished reading, is influencing my perspectives at moment. So what does these two words 'safety' and 'existence'?These are the words... Continue Reading →
How many times did I tell myself to give up?
When I evaluate myself about where I am in comparison to where I want to be in a research career, I see many areas where I can take it further. I used to review these 'incompetency' as part of my weakness. Now, I see that as potential of my growth and development. In my early... Continue Reading →
What is my fear? What is my courage to overcome that?
Few days ago, I suddenly remembered an incidence which was related to the interpersonal relationship. I actually forgot about this incidence all these years. It was when I was in Grade 5 or 6 and I joined the exchange group to an Island. It wasn't the first time I left my parents but it was... Continue Reading →
Why I have this sleepless nights?
Probably since last year, I have this occasional sleepless nights. Sometime it is consecutive, other time it is just one night. I have realised there is a common trait that contributing to my sleepless nights. In some sense, it is a good sign on the other I am aware it might affect my functionality of... Continue Reading →
What is ‘courage to stand up’ mean to me?
'Courage to stand up' probably was one of the motto I had for awhile. It was about stand against my immediate and extended family. It was to stand against common trait and tradition. It was to 'stand up' knowing I will provoke many hidden secrets in the family. In my early 20s, I become aware... Continue Reading →
How I celebrate victories?
For many years, I believed that I wasn't good enough. Not good enough to compete with others, not good enough to be quoted, not good enough to be remembered. All these 'I would never be good enough' eventually piled up before me and the name I gave to it was 'fear'. Don't think you are... Continue Reading →
Is that a tradition?
I guess, everyone have attached different meaning to the word 'tradition'. For me, it was a long battle to unchain myself from my family tradition. I grow up with moderately traditional extended family. Some rules in our family are rules and others are common sense. I put them in a box called 'tradition'. Since I... Continue Reading →
How do I stay true to myself?
I thought staying true to myself is my life long journey. If you ask me a year ago, I would have told you that I have to start by defining who am I. I felt very invisible because I had this contradictory perception of who I am. For example, one day you might find I... Continue Reading →
Journey of Personal Development 