Many times I question my own ability about my growth. Am I growing? Am I going anywhere? Am I improving? Am I progressing? Am I getting better? Am I achieving something? Am I proud of myself? I grow up in a parental style where my parents didn't feel we have achieved enough at any given... Continue Reading →
How did I find my self-respect?
Owning or having my self-respect was a long term challenge. Not knowing or understanding true self-respect, I disregarded for a long time. It was confronting when someone challenged me in this perspective. I was accepting external values as my own values. I believed that my life is not as pretty as others because I didn't... Continue Reading →
When was the last time you heard the whisper?
For many years, I have ignored my inner voice. Well, probably I didn't ignore it but didn't listen to it with my heart. It kept whisper to me about what it wants but majority of time I failed to give it enough attention. Sometime I even accuse it to confuse my decisions. My mum is... Continue Reading →
What does it means to cultivate the habit of being grateful?
When I think back, I didn't have everything I wanted during my childhood and young adulthood. Whilst, I know that my parents tried their best to provide what they could from the choices they had at that time. We weren't rich but weren't the worst. I know mum watched every cent we spent. So, since... Continue Reading →
When you face against a wall or a door…
When I face against a wall, I have tendency to stay before it until I feel I have done everything I can there so I have to move on. In reality, when I face against a wall, I fail to recognise it as a wall. I see it is a wall when I feel I... Continue Reading →
How do I value being-in-the-world with others?
According to the philosophy textbook I am reading at moment, you cannot exist by yourself. You know you are not alone because you know others exist in your world. Therefore, you do not exist/being alone rather you being-in-the-world with others. One day, I was reflecting on what motivates me to keep going?I never see myself... Continue Reading →
When you do things that’s different to your usual life…
As a family, we visited a goat farm over a weekend. I have grown up in urban areas most of my life, country lifestyle never attracted me. Over a weekend for a recreational purpose, we have decided to visit a goat farm. It was about 30 minutes drive from home. That's how close it was.... Continue Reading →
What’s my human spirit?
I was talking to my sister the other day. Slowly she's getting better but she questions every decision she made and every relationship she had. According to her perspective, there's something wrong with her that's why she's yet to have a successful relationship. "What do you mean by successful relationship?" I asked. "Some relationship that... Continue Reading →
How do I learn to break a habit?
I spent a relatively extensive time with my families and relatives for last two days. It was longer than I used to be. Before I spent time with them, I knew their tendency that they are very bounded by their traditional culture and norm. So, I was aware there were a tendency for me to... Continue Reading →
When you catch up with a long-time friend…
I met with a high school friend. We went to same high school and since then we meet every now and then for catch up. 10 years ago, she decided to move oversea for good. Now, living with her family. It was a coincidence I texted her this time. I thought about her so I... Continue Reading →
Journey of Personal Development 